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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 23.06.2025 12:53

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She married twice! .

Has anyone ever worn leather pants? Are they comfortable?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But, we were locked up after school.

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Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

What do you remember that 95% of us have forgotten?

It was going to be , some day.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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I was seconnd youngest,

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

So, i spoilt her more .

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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I was very sick at this time too.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Who then, do I blame.?

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Why do entitled people demand that I pick up after my doggo when he goes to the bathroom? Do they not know that doggy doo decomposes & feeds the plants?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My family never makes their pension either.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I will be 64.

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I have no regrets .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We all went to grammer schools

Comes on , in middle age.

She found it foreign!.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I don,t even have a pension.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I was 9 years of age.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

What did i know ?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I think the readers, may guess!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My life is so biszare .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And i lived it daily.

I said to her

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

All the time i was locked up.

I never cut or harmed myself..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

(And it was in our own minds.)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

As i do to all so called friends.?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Would this be the day?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Im still living with it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She wouldn,t have been !

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Ive learnt so much.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

One cannot live in the past .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I was scared of men, in general

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He knew the spot.

When she asked me how she looked .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Put me off passion for life!!

She was in good health!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I waited trembling.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She loved him until the end.

We were not on the streets..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I write beautiful poetry .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I couldn’t, believe it.

So whats the point in blame.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But it wasn’t much.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Why did i forgive my father ?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

This is soul school!.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I could never make a relationship work though!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.